THE FIRST FIRE
A place where a man can finally stop pretending he is not hurting.
7 Nights at The Fire
A journey into into
shame, secrecy, protection, grief, and devotion.
Seven audio and video transmissions.
Seven reflections.
Simple, short daily practices.
Closing ritual.
This offering was created primarily for men who are tired of hiding from themselves.
You can stop running now
There is something I have noticed over and over again after working with men for over a decade.
Everyone carries pain. But what makes it feel so unbearable is that many carry their pain ALONE...
Many are too ashamed to admit it and ask for help. They don't want to be a ''burden''. They feel they must always hold it together.
When they finally feel held, something cracks open and their deepest secrets start spilling out.
Every time it happens I see a massive shift. An exhale. A relief.
''Finally, somebody knows, somebody sees me and my pain.
Somebody knows my secret and my shame.''
I have seen that underneath the shame, the secrecy, the compulsions, and self-sabotage, there is usually a human being who is simply trying to protect something.
Most people have never been taught how to meet those parts of themselves.
They either judge them, suppress or pretend they don't exist.
The First Fire is an invitation to do something different.
For seven days, I will guide you through a process of slowing down, listening, and bringing awareness to the places within yourself that you normally avoid.
I WILL NOT TRY TO ''FIX'' THEM
The point is not to get rid of them or make yourself into a "better person".
The aim is to understand what is actually there.
What we refuse to face tends to run our lives from the shadows.
The Wild Mother
Is it for you?
This may be for you if...
You are tired of carrying something alone.
You know there are parts of yourself that you avoid looking at.
You are exhausted by the cycle of hiding, judging yourself, promising to change, and ending up in the same place again.
You want more honesty in your life.
You want more integrity.
You want to feel less divided within yourself.
You are willing to be curious about what is underneath your shame instead of fighting it.
What this is not
This is not about becoming more dominant, more spiritual, more masculine, or more impressive.
This is not about performing healing.
It is about developing the courage to sit with yourself honestly.
What you will receive
Seven audio transmissions.
Seven reflections.
Simple practices to bring awareness into the body and daily life.
A closing ritual and personal vow.
You can move through the journey in your own time and in the privacy of your own space.
Why I created this
I created The First Fire because I believe that shame thrives in isolation.
I also believe that most people are far kinder to others than they are to themselves.
Many of us spend years fighting parts of ourselves that are actually carrying old pain, old fear, or old adaptations.
I am not interested in helping you become someone else.
I am interested in helping you understand yourself more deeply.
Because from that place, real change becomes possible.
An invitation
You do not need any previous experiece or skills.
Just be willing to stop running for a little while.
Willing to listen.
If something in you recognises this invitation, I would be honoured to walk beside you for these seven days.
No judgement, no expectations.
Let me be your guide and compassionate witness.
The Wild Mother
The Earth Temple
Investment
Money is one of the ways we say:
"I am willing to take this seriously."
It is a commitment to showing up for yourself.
£88
Seven audio transmissions
Seven reflections and practices
For those who wish to walk the journey independently.
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£222
Everything in The First Fire, plus:
One private opening or integration meeting.
A private journal space where you can write to me each day after completing the practice.
I will personally read your reflections and hold witness to your journey.
You are welcome to write every day. This is a space for witnessing rather than ongoing coaching or conversation.
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£288
Everything in Witnessed, plus:
One private opening meeting.(online)
Your daily reflections are personally read and held by me throughout the process.
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The Path Through The Fire
Night 1: The Threshold
We do not begin by tearing ourselves apart. I will guide you to create a feeling of safety required for this work.
Night 2: The Hidden Room
Some things have been waiting a very long time to be spoken.
Night 3: The Cost
What remains hidden does not disappear. It asks for payment in other ways.
Night 4: The Guardian
The part you fight the hardest may once have been the part that saved you.
Night 5: The Wound
Beneath shame and guilt there is often something that simply wanted to be loved.
Night 6: The Return
When shame loosens its grip, life force begins to return to what matters.
You will begin to feel your energy coming back.
Night 7: The Vow
Real change rarely begins with a grand promise. One honest step is enough.
Trust is rebuilt through small acts repeated with honesty.
You do not need to know everything that waits by the fire.
Only whether you are willing to walk towards it.
I am not interested in convincing anyone to enter the Temple.
If this is for you, I trust that you will know.
